Sunday, 24 May 2015

30 Days Challenge 14, Surprise yourself

I will not hide my tastes or aversions. I will so trust that what is deep is holy, if we follow the truth, it will bring us out safe at last.
– Ralph Waldo Emerson

Think of a time when you didn’t think you were capable of doing something, but then surprised yourself.
How will you surprise yourself this week?

I don't know if I surprise myself or if it's more that I'm just doing it, or continue to go on because, hey, who else is? In my opinion women are stronger than they themselves give them credit for or are being credited for. Not only by men or other women but by society as well. We are being payed less for the same jobs, being scrutinised every moment of every day. We are being criticised sometimes even by other women which is worse I think, women should stick together don't they? But that's another subject entirely. ;)

In my life I've been very insecure and I think I did things that surprised other people. In my mind I never surprised myself, I just did things, sometimes without thinking. But if there is one thing that did surprise me it is that I had the courage to divorce the father of my children. Nothing is more devastating than a horrible marriage or being ignored for years. To be able to choose for yourself in those circomstances was a huge step for myself. One that I will never ever regret! 

I don't look forward. I take one day at a time, or try to anyway, so I can't say I will surprise myself in the next week, month or year. I just don't live like that, and I don't want to. 

© KH